When things get tough in races my mind naturally goes to the excuses I can make after the event. I also tend to dwell on the mistakes I am making on the bike. The difference between a good race and a bad race hinges on if I can clear my mind of these thoughts and refocus on the present task at hand.
After a few hundred races of trying to bring my thoughts back to the present, I am at the point where I generally have intense clarity of thought while racing. In my hectic daily life I have a constant bombardment of thoughts and often struggle to stay focused; maybe it is the digital age we live in.
While racing I am able to clear my mind and focus on how to ride this corner faster, and the next corner. I can focus on the riders around me; where are they making mistakes, are their lines faster, where do I have an advantage? This clarity is addictive, in a busy world purity of though it hard to find and it always feels good to find it again.
I consider myself an optimist but I have been described as overly optimistic, looking for the positives when none exist. In racing, blind optimism can help. Even when everything seems to be going wrong, you never know when your competitor might flat or crash, or your legs come around and you get that career-best ride.
The first mountain bike BC Cup I ever won I got a flat tire and fixed it, kept riding hard and the leader flatted on the last lap, and I came through to win. Being smart is better than being strong. Some of my most satisfying rides came when I was out-gunned but won on tactics. Similarly, some of my most frustrating rides was when I knew I was the strongest but didn’t win.