For me, cycling is like floating. In the busy job that I’m in, my mind is constantly racing and thinking about the next thing, but when I’m on my bike I don’t have that. You lose yourself. It feels like being free, like you can go forever. I’ve tried to challenge myself to run more because I hate it, but it’s tiring for me. When I’m riding, though, my legs don’t feel tired, I can just ride and ride and ride. I’ll have that floating sensation, and then all of a sudden I’ll stop and think to myself, ‘Damn, I’ve ridden 50 miles’. It’s effortless.
That said, this past summer I did my first century ride in the Hudson Valley in upstate New York. I’d done the 55-mile race the year before and I knew the 100 was something I wanted to try. I was riding but I wouldn’t say I trained in the lead-up, so it’s probably no surprise that I was toast after 75 miles. My left leg shut down, but thankfully the last 25 miles was mostly downhill. The excitement of the finish helped get me through, I wanted to feel that sense of accomplishment. Plus, I’m competitive. I would have been able to finish for myself, but seeing those other riders stoked a fire in me and drove me to want to beat them to the finish, even with a leg that was giving me grief.
I loved it, though, and the whole experience changed me - I think endurance events do that. My friend David, who works in our office, ran a marathon and the week after he came back to work I noticed a change in him. It’s like the marathon shocked his system a little bit and he had a different perspective on things. It’s like when you travel and you come back feeling refreshed. I could tell the marathon had that positive effect on David, and the century ride had the same impact on me. I think it’s a mixture of accomplishment, and wondering what else you’re capable of.
One thing I’ve been thinking a lot about is leaning into challenges and adversity and struggle because I know that’s where all the benefits are going to be for me. It’s why I’d like to run more, because I hate it and it’s difficult, but I know it’s good for me. To do that, I think it’s about being present and aware of the challenges, and understanding that if there’s something bubbling up and I don’t feel like doing it, there needs to be a voice to counteract and interpret that feeling. I also want to do another century ride in 2019, and I’d like to take my cycling more seriously and get more regimented about it. I’m never really tracking my time or things of that nature, I use Strava to see my mileage but I would like to get more seriously involved in the sport. I know that means getting the full kit, and probably a new bicycle and getting sized properly and all that fun stuff, but I’m excited to learn about the next level.